New Life

Now is my new life
I am in Singapore almost one month
Still trying to adapt with the surrounding

But honestly
I love Singapore...at the same time... I hate Singapore too
~FUNNY~
Not to deny that Singapore security sibeh good...(This is why I love Singapore)
but
All the Singaporean live in a busy life...every weekday rushing here and there...include the senior citizen
(This is why I hate Singapore life)

Last Friday
I deserved my first salary
OHMYGOD
I was so happy
then I went to Orchard Centre -shopping-
Love the most

But now I'm nervous
My A' Level result will be release on March 7
this coming Wednesday
I'm so nervous

Too many question appear in my head

How is my feeling after I know my result ???
How is my mum and dad reaction ???
How is my school teacher reaction ???
Will it be a good result ???
Will I'm going to enter University sucessfully ???

Am I worry too much
The answer is NO
cause everyone - mum...dad..teacher has a high expectation toward me
Will I going to let them down ???
Will I going to let myself down ???

This really driving me crazy

How I'm going to face my result???
can someone tell me

my life

do you all know that my life is suck

现在不知道要从那里说起

the only thing I know is my life really suck...just like a shit

because of you all I think my life really really failed

因为你们

看你们...听你们说的话...看你们的patern

make me sibehdulan

what kind of people you are???

does both of you think of me...

heiii~ I'm here and I'm not transparent

I can see eveything with my eyes and I can heard eveything with my ears

~BULLSHITTTT~

Fortuneless

what happen to my hand near my shoulder

It was pain

My mum bring me to a Chinese physician coz I cant drive myself

the Chinese physician asked me , what I have done to my hand

and I said I do not know

I woke up in the morning and I could not raise my hand up

it was pain

see...how shooooiiiii

do you know what had the Chinese physician done to my hand??

sure u do not believe what I told u now

He pull my hand and my mother hold my body

then the Chinese physician turn my hand

360 degree and push my hand in

take a look...

can u all imagine how pain it is

it was awful

it looks terrible and horrible

my hand still pain

I could not sleep at night

furthermore I feel so difficult to do my daily activities include bath

MYGOSH

Pray to god...

get better soon

if not sure I blame on my hand

cause me no mood to do my revision

Tonight

After tonight

I'm going pia...pia...pia

then

I can really feel the tension situation

It's stressful

I hate it and I love it

Haizzz

What to do??

~Life should go on~

after today will be Monday

another 3 week for STPM

kind a bit kia le

I need pia pia

cannot fooling around

playing here and there

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now the topic

should I cut off my hair

I thinking to perm my long hair

unfortunately no $$$$

coz i need to save it for my trip

then should I cut off my hair???

haizzz....rimas betul...

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start on Monday

I should plan on my timetable

and i really need a study-timetable

~MICHELLE FIGHTING~

pull a long face..(frustrated)

I hate this place
I hate them
although I stay here...but here looks like it does not belong to me
everything does not belong to me

...care...love...respect...

-

I already sick with this place

-

I try and try
to communicate v u all

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I try and try
to forgive u all

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I try and try
to obey to Ur instruction
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I try and try
to compromise v u all
-

but
at the end... "stupid"
just "stupid" word can symbolize all my action
-
I've give up

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I've feel tired
-
I really hope I can enter university
I wan leave this sibeh dulan place
I try to gain many thing here

-
but at last

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I lost everything here

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...mum's love...
...sibling's respect...
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everything here just make me sad

I really suffer at this place...

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now I really mad...

the things is belong to me

I am the one who buy it

I do not like to share my things

I means sometimes I really don't

so when I said I want to share with you

means I really want share with you

but

when you use it

do you ever think of me???

I'm not blame on you

I just want you to know

think of that person when you the person things

and don't just think of yourself

Malay proverb said...

..."bagi peha nak betis"...

I know if you read this post

you really will feel angry with me

and call me ''xiao qi Gui''

or

stingy...selfish

I don't care at all

and of course

no one will care it at all

I just want you to learn that

respect other people thing when that person agree to share something with you

this is a kind of a basic manner

that everyone should know

include you

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