Happy + sad

Today second test game for amazing race.
Very happy because everyone is so happy with it
This time the test game is better than the first time
Really happy with the result
Hehehehe

One thing that still burden me is my result
I really really regret what I had done in this sem
I'm really unsatisfic with my result
So sad
I promise to myself
Going to work hard next sem

Stress

Today was my last day of exam

Finished it at 10.30 am

Then Bill, Yi Ting, Jia Siew, Chang Lin went to shopping

I was happy because I was enable no shop the entire day

But now

I felt depressed because I'm thinking my result

Thinking what will my reaction be after I knowing my result

Scaring man

Promise to myself...

Next Sem 

Going to study hard to caught up with it

【First Time】

This week was my first time taking exam in University of Malaya

Yesterday it was a first day and I was able to handle it

Today is the second day and it was terrible

I do not know how to answer the question

I'm sad with it

I read all and I try all...I put alot of effort on it

At last, I keep told myself, " It's OK girl. It's was you first time experience this type of exam".

I thought I will able to manage my mood very well

I keep cheer myself up with all the stupid, nonsense, illogical reasons.

Until I express my feeling in the bath room when I was bathing

I cry

Suddenly I cry

I keep blame myself

Keep blaming myself, "WHY I WAS SO STUPID"

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that your daughter feel so stress 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I want to give up 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I miss her

Am I too stress

Because of...

I aiming too high for my results

or

I trying to maintain my scholarship with the results

I'm trying to find a answer for myself

【随缘】

Do you all know what

I'm in trouble

I'm falling in love with someone

Old people always said that don't ever hate someone u dislike

The more you hate, the more u like him or her

I really in trouble now

I really hate him

but

I don't know why I sudden like him

OHMYGODNESS

I always gossip bad things about him

How can I fall in love with him instate I hate him so much

~aiyo~

 headache

【我爱的人，不是爱我的人】

【寂寞，孤单】

几年的朋友和几十年的朋友
原来在你们心目中
我什么都不是

也许是我想太多了吧
但是...我的自觉告诉我你们真的这样对我
有时我的自觉是对的

你们不是我
你们当然不觉得是自己的错
你们更不会感受到我的苦

你们人多...一个说没错
全部一定也说不是你们的错

错错错...全都是我的错
只从那个人出现后...我们全部都变了
也许对你们来说
谁都没变...变的只有我一个

我永远都是那个人
【寂寞】【孤单】

New YEar 2013

It's a first day of new year

Everyone was so busy celebrated while I'm busy doing my revision

Received JPA scholarship

Need to score a good grades

So stressful

I need some motivation to study

Dunoe what problem make me so lazy to study

Someone help me please!!

No matter what,

Keep force myself to study

FIghTinG !

Last but not least

I wish all the wishes in the world will come true

F~R~I~E~N~D

"FRIEND ???"

 

What that means for you all??

 

 

I treat you as my best friend

Why you always make me feel that you are not one of my truth friend

 

 

Anything... No matter what thing I do

I will remember to ask you

But last

When you do something, do you think to ask me wether I want join or not

 

 

This problem really m

ake me down

I'm so disapointed with your attitude

 

 

Do you know that...

Family is the first level in my heart...

Friend is the second level...

I really could not accept what you have done to me

 

 

Sometimes

I really want to cruel to you

Just ignore and try to boikot you

Unfortunately

I could not make it

This is because I know that friend is important to me...

 

 

What I can do now

Is just hope that this matter happen and repeat again and again