pull a long face..(frustrated)

I hate this place
I hate them
although I stay here...but here looks like it does not belong to me
everything does not belong to me

...care...love...respect...

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I already sick with this place

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I try and try
to communicate v u all

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I try and try
to forgive u all

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I try and try
to obey to Ur instruction
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I try and try
to compromise v u all
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but
at the end... "stupid"
just "stupid" word can symbolize all my action
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I've give up

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I've feel tired
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I really hope I can enter university
I wan leave this sibeh dulan place
I try to gain many thing here

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but at last

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I lost everything here

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...mum's love...
...sibling's respect...
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everything here just make me sad

I really suffer at this place...

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now I really mad...

the things is belong to me

I am the one who buy it

I do not like to share my things

I means sometimes I really don't

so when I said I want to share with you

means I really want share with you

but

when you use it

do you ever think of me???

I'm not blame on you

I just want you to know

think of that person when you the person things

and don't just think of yourself

Malay proverb said...

..."bagi peha nak betis"...

I know if you read this post

you really will feel angry with me

and call me ''xiao qi Gui''

or

stingy...selfish

I don't care at all

and of course

no one will care it at all

I just want you to learn that

respect other people thing when that person agree to share something with you

this is a kind of a basic manner

that everyone should know

include you

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=(

I feel so upset with my yesterday test

that is business studies

I read all

all is in my brain

but

haizzz

the answer is so that simple

why I so stupid that think twice wheater the one that I thought

so

today decided to stay at home

din go to schl

and get prepare for my paper 2 to safe my paper 1

hopefully ya

I wish I can obtain the marks that I really want it

i'm angry right now...

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每次和你说话

不能够说好好吗



everytime like that

and is most of the time



很不喜欢和你说话

就是因为这样



你生气是你的事

可是可以不要拿我来出气吗

我可以忍

因为我知道

你是我的谁

可是

这部代表...你每次都能这样地对我

我是人耶

能感受到的

21st january is my birthday....
celebrated coming 19
but it was suck
i was accident

I donoe how to described it
but the feeling is really suck
make me feel unsafe...
I juz cry and my hug my uncle
this is the first time i feel so scared

My dad hevan noe...
sure he will kill me...
wat to do
first day of my 19...so many trouble
this show this year will become my soiiii year...


to my friend,
thx to u all celebrated with me after i cried for 1 hour +
i really sorry if spoit the situation


get really for my dad and mum
scold me...

just finished celebrates new year with all my family member
we having barbeque at my grandma house
my stomach really full with all the food that prepared by my grandma


to my frenz...sorry to say...
to Elhong and the geng...I could not make it for the date u request coz having family time...
so I rejected...paiseh le...
to Cru Tey and the geng...jor me go pub sing...paishe...could not make it too...same reason...
having family time...
to my another mistery frendz...sory cannot go genting with u to attend the countdown party...
same reason...family time


wat ever
last but not least...
new year...new life...new target...new aim...
tahun baru azam baru...
gogogog

the day before this
everyday sleep and sleep
is my job

my dad bought me a new nike shoe
I love it so much
bring me to nike shop
after trying said no money
then ok lo
I put back
who knows he give me his master card and asked me to pay
haha
my mum sure jealous me
haha...my dad wan to buy one pair for himself
but he said it not comfortable at all
the we went to converse shop
my sister prefer converse than nike...coz he like to wear boy style shoe

this few day i look like
lost myself...and I even donoe where I have lost

3 more days going to school like usual
hate this thing
coz 2011 will my future year
damm hate it
cant relax and enjoy in that year
going to work hard for my future
coz I really duwan go to UUM
i prefer UM or UKM
pls let me do it
so I will work hard and fight for it

I want to change everything
evrything inside me
prove to myself I can do it if I work hard for it

I will do it...and I'm willing to do so