【真的】

我好像真的喜欢上他了

怎么办

今天发生了一点点小事

因为这件事

我很想讨厌他

如果他对我笑，我就不要对他笑

唉~

我就是做不到

差了啦

我真的不知道我喜欢他那里

又不好看

又不高

有吵死人

我真的，真的，真的...不知道

Most emo day

Today really really emo day for me

The most emo day through out the sem 

I really dont know what had happened to myself

I really angry till I do not know how to explain it

I really sad till I do not know how to express my feeling

Sudden, I do not know what happened to me

Totally no idea!!!!

Weird + Miracle

How is the feeling for fall in love with some one that you love

for me

the feeling is weird

not to said weird is a miracle

I will laugh when he laugh

I will smile when he smile

When he was tired, I will worry about him

When he talk to me, I was so happy

When I could not see him, I was so sad and hope will see him immediately

Is that the feeling for falling in love with some one

I really miss him

Is this show that I am in love with him

I know that he is not my ideal man

but

how come all this weird and miracle feeling will happen to me

At first I think that I'm crazy

Now I still not sure

Need to wait for a time

So, I can determine whether my feeling is right or wrong

I need to find an answer for myself

Happy + sad

Today second test game for amazing race.
Very happy because everyone is so happy with it
This time the test game is better than the first time
Really happy with the result
Hehehehe

One thing that still burden me is my result
I really really regret what I had done in this sem
I'm really unsatisfic with my result
So sad
I promise to myself
Going to work hard next sem

Stress

Today was my last day of exam

Finished it at 10.30 am

Then Bill, Yi Ting, Jia Siew, Chang Lin went to shopping

I was happy because I was enable no shop the entire day

But now

I felt depressed because I'm thinking my result

Thinking what will my reaction be after I knowing my result

Scaring man

Promise to myself...

Next Sem 

Going to study hard to caught up with it

【First Time】

This week was my first time taking exam in University of Malaya

Yesterday it was a first day and I was able to handle it

Today is the second day and it was terrible

I do not know how to answer the question

I'm sad with it

I read all and I try all...I put alot of effort on it

At last, I keep told myself, " It's OK girl. It's was you first time experience this type of exam".

I thought I will able to manage my mood very well

I keep cheer myself up with all the stupid, nonsense, illogical reasons.

Until I express my feeling in the bath room when I was bathing

I cry

Suddenly I cry

I keep blame myself

Keep blaming myself, "WHY I WAS SO STUPID"

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that your daughter feel so stress 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I want to give up 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I miss her

Am I too stress

Because of...

I aiming too high for my results

or

I trying to maintain my scholarship with the results

I'm trying to find a answer for myself

【随缘】

Do you all know what

I'm in trouble

I'm falling in love with someone

Old people always said that don't ever hate someone u dislike

The more you hate, the more u like him or her

I really in trouble now

I really hate him

but

I don't know why I sudden like him

OHMYGODNESS

I always gossip bad things about him

How can I fall in love with him instate I hate him so much

~aiyo~

 headache

【我爱的人，不是爱我的人】

【寂寞，孤单】

几年的朋友和几十年的朋友
原来在你们心目中
我什么都不是

也许是我想太多了吧
但是...我的自觉告诉我你们真的这样对我
有时我的自觉是对的

你们不是我
你们当然不觉得是自己的错
你们更不会感受到我的苦

你们人多...一个说没错
全部一定也说不是你们的错

错错错...全都是我的错
只从那个人出现后...我们全部都变了
也许对你们来说
谁都没变...变的只有我一个

我永远都是那个人
【寂寞】【孤单】

New YEar 2013

It's a first day of new year

Everyone was so busy celebrated while I'm busy doing my revision

Received JPA scholarship

Need to score a good grades

So stressful

I need some motivation to study

Dunoe what problem make me so lazy to study

Someone help me please!!

No matter what,

Keep force myself to study

FIghTinG !

Last but not least

I wish all the wishes in the world will come true