【First Time】

This week was my first time taking exam in University of Malaya

Yesterday it was a first day and I was able to handle it

Today is the second day and it was terrible

I do not know how to answer the question

I'm sad with it

I read all and I try all...I put alot of effort on it

At last, I keep told myself, " It's OK girl. It's was you first time experience this type of exam".

I thought I will able to manage my mood very well

I keep cheer myself up with all the stupid, nonsense, illogical reasons.

Until I express my feeling in the bath room when I was bathing

I cry

Suddenly I cry

I keep blame myself

Keep blaming myself, "WHY I WAS SO STUPID"

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that your daughter feel so stress 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I want to give up 

I hope that I can have a call to mummy and tell her that I miss her

Am I too stress

Because of...

I aiming too high for my results

or

I trying to maintain my scholarship with the results

I'm trying to find a answer for myself